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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Ready to throw the towel in

I just got back from the pediatrician. Sam broke out in a HORRIBLE rash three days ago and it has progressivly gotten worse. I have pictures of it that I was going to post, but I don't feel like posting those anymore, as the nature of the illness has become way more serious than planned.
Sam has Fifth's disease. Yeah..what the heck is that. It is a virus that causes a severe rash. You get it once, and never get it again. No big deal. Once the rash is visible, you aren't contagious anymore. Big relief, we didn't infect anyone...we were all home at the time he was contagious.
However, as we were leaving the office, the pediatrition said she felt like she needed to ask me something. She asked me if I know anyone in the first trimester of pregnancy. I said "that would be me." She then told me to sit down.
She proceded to tell me that if I haven't had Fifth's disease before (which I really don't think I have, and my mom doesn't recall me having it), then it can be INCREDIBLY harmful to the forming baby inside of me. It is quite serious.
So, I have an appt. with the OB tomorrow and we are going to do all sorts of tests, probably followed by more tests...and maybe an untrasound. The odds seem against me, but I just pray that the baby is o.k., and will continue to form in the right way. We just don't know at this point. I just want to have a nervous breakdown right here, right now. But because I am me, I won't...why bother, it changes nothing. I know the Lord has His hand in all of it, that should be enough. I will go to the gym, cook dinner, get the kids to bed, and go through the motions. What more is there to do. I am scared.

14 comments:

Gina said...

Oh Becky! We will pray for you and for your baby. It is comforting knowing the Lord is in charge. I pray it will all turn out ok.

Jessica Kay said...

i love you!! with that song playing and your strength I felt through that post, I just know you are so amazing and the Lord will bless you through all your trials

Jaggers Brain said...

Becky!!! You and your family are in my prayers! I am so in awe of your faith in the Lord. The gospel is true, and the Lord is mindful, and in charge!!! Love you!

D’s Nuts!! said...

Hi Becky,

I'm sorry about little Sam. We had a kid in our primary with Fifth's disease and everyone was really worried about Ashley being pregnant. They can do some tests and determine if you're immune to it or not.

What our doctor told us was that most kids had it sometime in life, but they and their parents didn't realize it because the rash can be pretty mild sometimes.

Ashley was able to get tested and that was the case even though she and her mom had no recollection of her ever having it. We'll pray for you as well and hope that everything goes smoothly.

Dallas

runningfan said...

Oh, man! Good luck. That is definitely scary. You'll be in my prayers.

Sylvia said...

I love you and your sweet little family...all will be well! Be brave my sweet little daughter!
Heavenly Father loves you too and I know you know that!
Keep your chin up and think positive and know that you are never alone...I've been on my knees all afternoon.
Love ya, MOM

Deanna said...

Oh, Becky! We will continue to keep you and your family in our prayers. You are so strong...You have such a strong testimony. Hang in there!

Familia Morales said...

Oh Becky! I hope everything goes well at the appointment. I"ll keep you in my prayers

Adri said...

We are praying for you and the little one...

Berly said...

You will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers.

Nancy said...

Thinking of you and hoping all is well. We sure love you guys.

Darci and Ryan said...

We love you Becky. Thinking and praying for you as well.

Colleen said...

You are such a strong woman, Becky! I am so sorry you have to go through this worry. It is really scary to have something like that happen! When I was in my first two days of pregnancy (he was like 4 cells big!) with Josh, but before I knew I was pregnant since he wasn't exactly planned at that time, I had an x-ray on my hand after I broke my finger playing flag football. It all turned out fine, Josh was fine, but I was totally panicked for a while there. What I am trying to say, is I am sure everything is fine!! Baby is OK. It is hard not to be scared, but I am SURE it will be fine!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!

The Hardy Things in Life said...

We love you and you will be in our prayers!! You are such an amazing person and the Lord is on your side!!