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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

The C Word

Colic. I hate it so much that I can't even say the word outloud. It is a curse.

The baby cried every few minutes for about 15 hours today. Yesterday was the same. He has been fussy since day one, but is progressively getting worse. We don't sleep. I hardly eat. I don't have time. A shower is a luxery. I have slept for three hours in the past 48 hours and I have spent the rest of the time bouncing, feeding, burping and walking a screaming baby. Mary and Sam have basically been left on their own. The guilt I feel for not being able to take care of them is horrible. The baby is just too demanding. My arms, energy and patience are completely exhausted. I have reached limits to my sanity that I never thought possible. I am probably headed to Idaho earlier than planned. A baby with severe colic and two other kids to take care of, is something that needs a whole army to conquer. Mommy can't do it alone, and daddy has to work. Mary and Sam deserve better. Not to mention the fact that we are supposed to be packing and moving in two weeks. Heaven help us...please.

9 comments:

Darci and Ryan said...

No fun! I hope that things get better soon!

Heather said...

Idaho would be a great thing for you right now. You need some relief! I wish I were closer, I'd come rescue you! You are in my prayers!

Nancy said...

I felt the same way when I was trying to recover from my horrible c-section and Aaron was sick. Jaron was running wild and the only attention he got was when we yelled at him because he was acting up. I remember crying because I felt so horrible because that he didn't deserve it. I finally had to call a friend and send him to her house. (Which I also felt bad about, but he was much happier there and we got some rest.)

Take time for yourself or you'll go crazy. Have you read the book "The Happiest Baby on the Block?" I did all the stuff when Violet had a tummy ache at night and it seemed to help her alot. There's the 5 "S's." Swaddle, Side (or Stomach) (when you're holding him... not sleeping,) Shhhh, Swinging (movement), and Sucking. Do all 5 at the same time and it helps a ton! I also put pepermint oil on her belly when she was really upset and it seemed to calm her too.

I hope you get some relief. Feel free to call me if you're up in the middle of the night. It would just be morning here. 208-899-8521. I'd come watch your kiddos and hold your baby if I could. I sure love you and you're in my prayers!!

Mama Bear said...

It's such a blessing to have a family that can help you. We had to deal with the colic with little Tucker and it was so hard on the older 3. It is so unfortunate to watch them sit there and watch tv all day because your baby wont be calmed. Take advantage of the help because we are dealing with discipline problems now days and it feels awful to know they are just acting out from the neglect, trying to get the attention.

Trinette McCrary said...

Oh how I hated the "C" word too. I know it's hard, hang in there. You are very blessed to have family that can help you!

Trinette McCrary said...

oh, research grip water! We used it for Olivia and it brought her some relief!

Trinette McCrary said...

gripe, forgot the e sorry I keep commenting!

Katie Ladwig said...

Coming to Pocatello was exactly the remedy I was thinking of for you. Let your Momma help and hey, I'm here to and would love to kiss on cute pudgy baby cheeks. Even if they do scream at me.

erin d. said...

love you