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This Is Where It All Begins

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Sunday, June 6, 2010

Lullaby

On June 4th, 2009 I sat in the hospital bed with tears streaming down my face. I was in recovery after an emergency D&C. I had lost over 35% of my blood that morning. I had been taken by ambulance to the hospital and soon after taken into surgery. Ben was by my side and we were silently soaking in the events of that terrible day. Our hearts were shattered.

And there it was again. The lullaby. Every time a baby was born, it would play over the speaker. Every time, I would hold my empty stomach, that just that morning had held my 16 week old baby, and cry. My heart was torn. I was numb. I was empty.
It was my Birthday.

At 7:30am on Friday, June 4th 2010, I stepped off the elevator. It was the same hospital, same floor, and I was going to meet the same doctor, exactly one year later...to the day. I had been having contractions for the past 24 hours, and the doctor had decided that if the baby hadn't come by that night, that he would help me out that morning with some pitocin. The baby didn't come that night, and I was in a lot of pain and exhausted. So there I was.

When I got all hooked up, I was already at a 3.5 and 70% effaced. They started the pitocin at 8:30am, and broke my water at 9:30. For whatever reason, Dr. Weary said my water was very stubborn. ha! By 11:00am I was at a 5! Things were progressing quickly and well. Then the contractions hit hard and furious. Because of the help from the pitocin, the contractions were 2 min. apart and I was only getting less than 30 sec. to try to calm down before the next one hit. They administered some great meds. into the I.V. and I held out for another 2 hours. I was in a ton of pain, but I was managing, with the help of a loving husband. By 12:30, I was beginning to shake all over and gasp for air. I just wasn't getting enough recovery time between contractions. So I got an epidural. The guy put it in in record time and he did a great job. It was WONDERFUL!!! Once it was in, I collapsed down on the bed and literally fell asleep. I actually slept while in labor. Crazy! At 3:00, I was awake and very ready to push, but the doc. was in an emergency surgery, and told the nurse to tell me to wait. I pumped up the epidural until I couldn't feel the urge so strongly, and waited. Thank goodness for the epidural. I would have been VERY sad to miss Dr. Weary.

At 3:45 the doctor came walking in. I pushed for less than ten minutes. At 3:58pm, William Wright Maynard was born. The first thing out of Dr. Weary's mouth was, "that is a big boy!" I glanced up and saw him hand off a Roley poly baby to the nurse. I couldn't help but grin. I watched the tears stream down Ben's face. Such a proud and loving daddy. My heart was so full of love for both of my boys in that room. Ben cut the cord and watched as the nurse did all of the baby stuff with William. I was exhausted but so anxious to hold my precious gift. We all watched with anticipation when they placed William on the scale. Everyone cracked up when it showed a whopping 9.3lbs. 20 1/2 inches. He had a head of blonde hair, and an adorable fat kissy face. Perfect in every way.


Finally, they placed him in my arms. Ben and I just stared at our beautiful baby. I thought my heart would explode with the love I had for this baby.
It was June 4th, and as I glanced up for a moment, I saw the beautiful dozen red roses Ben had brought to the hospital for me.
It was my Birthday.
I immediately thought what an amazing day it had turned out to be. I thought of how incredible the timing was. How special it was. How blessed we were. How much the Lord had blessed our lives and healed our hearts.

With so much love and gratitude in my heart, I was overwhelmed. At that moment, Ben looked at me with tear filled eyes, and said, "listen."
And there it was, playing on the speaker. The lullaby.
Our lullaby.
Ben and I let the tears flow.


Don't mind the chubby, fluid filled face of mine. Just look at my hot husband and adorable baby.


Mary loves to hold him, and is so excited. She is a great helper.


In EVERY ultrasound, he was sucking on his hand like this. He still does it. I think it is way too cute.


Sam surprised me with his excitement about the baby. He asked if he could "pet" him, and is really interested in everything. He is gentle with him, and likes to help feed him.


See the sign that says LGA. That means "large," as in large baby. Love it.


Right after he was born. I was so happy! Again...just look at the baby. Obviously, I had just been through labor, and my makeup was long gone.


Edible.


My THREE kids. I love this picture.


There just aren't words for this picture.

31 comments:

shaina said...

I am thrilled for you guys. It's been a very long year for you.

Darci and Ryan said...

Congrats! I am so glad things went well...the tears are streaming down my face as well. He's perfect!

Familia Morales said...

Your story is bringing tears to my eyes. So happy for you and Ben. William is a beautiful baby!

Furniss Family said...

That is terrible all you have been through this last year. What a blessing that new little baby must be and he is sooooo cute and chubby. What a special day June 4th is in your family, a day to always remember. I am so happy for you and your darling family. BEst wishes for you and the new baby! Hope your are doing well and the recovery has been good to you. Take care little lady :)

Adri said...

What a beautifully written post. We are so excited to meet Mr. William!

I've heard you talk about the 'lullaby' before, but can't figure out how I managed to completely miss that during my 4 day stay when I had Davis. I'm keeping my ears open this time!

Kristen said...

Oh man I feel like a blubbering idiot! Congrats again and again. What a wonderfully happy ending/beginning. He is beautiful and I am so happy for you and your family!

Aubrie said...

He is the cutest , rolly poliest baby ever! Congrats Becky! What a beautiful story and I am so glad the lullaby was a sweet one this year.

Deanna said...

Congratulations!!!! i've been anxiously awaiting your beautiful post!!!

He looks delicious...with all those adorable rolls! :)

We're so happy for you both!!! :)

Adam W. said...

Awesome!

Ben - your William and my John are just a month apart. Surely they'll be serving together in Argentina soon!

runningfan said...

Congratulations! What an awesome birthday present.

Nayomee and Doug said...

He is beautiful!! We are so happy for you guys and can't wait to see him. Clark and William will be best friends!!

The Seven Family said...

Becky - so cute!! Congrats!

Melanie said...

We are so thrilled for you! Quite a story you have, my dear! What a blessing for your little family! Happy Birthday! Happy Baby! Happy Family!

Gina said...

What a beautiful story! He is so beautiful and you look fantastic! Loves to you all!

MaryAnn said...

Oh my gosh, that rolls picture kills me! Congrats you guys, he's beautiful!

Jenni said...

I'm so happy for the five of you! Oh my heck you're a family of five now!! Like everyone else I'm writing this through tears!! He looks adorable and so very healthy! Hope to meet him some day!

Trinette McCrary said...

What a cute chubby Will! Happy for you and your family!

Ben and Megan said...

CONGRATULATIONS YOU GUYS!! I'll tell Ben when I talk to him next (he's in Alaska now). He is sooooo gorgeous and he came right when you needed him. I think he looks just like his dad! Good luck with all the moving and with the new babes this summer. We miss you guys!

Colleen said...

He is JUST SO CUTE! Chubby babies always look so much better post-birth...but of course, I'm biased :). We loved that in the nursery Tommy outweighed the three other babies there by almost THREE pounds! I am so happy that this journey from tragedy to amazing has come to a beautiful, sweet, smooshy end. Or should I say beginning? Can't wait to meet the little man!

Dan and Katie said...

Yay! What a cute precious baby! Amazing story. Can't wait to meet Will!

Katie Ladwig said...

So, so cute. Congratulations! I am so excited for you to find all the joys that having three kids brings. And it really is joy! We love you!

The Hardy Things in Life said...

AWWW, Congrats!! He is just too perfect!! Happy to hear things went well!! Mary and Sam look so proud!! Love it!! And love you guys a ton!!

Maja said...

What a sweet baby! I love all the blond hair and of course the chubby face. So glad the pregnancy is over for you and that you get to hold your baby. Taylor asks to "pet babies too"! It is too funny.

The Cushing Family said...

CONGRATULATIONS YOU GUYS!!! You are such a trooper, Becky. You have been through so much. I am so glad that William is finally here. Can you believe we're not pregnant anymore??? CONGRATS and enjoy the new baby. He is gorgeous!

Allen Family said...

Just wanted to say Congratulations. I am once again so touched by your story. I am so glad you finally got your wonderful baby. What a great birthday present for you. Congrats.

The Maughan-sters said...

Congrats Maynard Fam!!!! We are soooo excited for you guys!!!! Such a blessing! I was hoping he would come on your bday!!! :D SOO awesome! Congrats again and Good Luck!

COKE FAMILY said...

Congratulations, what a great family. Happy Birthday to both of you!

Mama Bear said...

I don't know if you'll read this far down, but Congras!!!!!!!! That is such a touching story and your chubby baby is absolutely beautiful. The Lord loves you so much and has made your birthday a beautiful one again. I hope you're all doing so great. You all look great and I'm so happy for you.

Jaggers Brain said...

Becky!!!! Congrats! Such a beautiful family!!! William is such a cute and edible baby! I can't wait to see him!

Kristi said...

Ah... I am just back from vacation and just catching up. Congrats! He is adorable and everyone look great!

Angela Frasure said...

That's the exact same weight and length of my newest baby (from November). Congrats! What an amazing post, I barely know you and I'm crying!