My Reasons

My Reasons

This Is Where It All Begins

This Is Where It All Begins

Monday, November 17, 2008

First Official Freak Out!!!!!

O.K., I know you all are so sick of hearing about running and the marathon, but it is a HUGE goal I have been working on forever, and something I have been working my tale end off for, so I guess I deserve to talk about it a little. I apologize. You can just skip this if you want to.
According to the timer on the right of the blog, there are four more days until "the day." We are leaving Thursday, so really, only 2 1/2 more days until we are on the road. Wow, it is finally here!
So far, I have been doing pretty well with all of the mental games and the nerves. The long runs are done, the training is basically done, and I am supposed to be resting up and carb. loading. Sounds easy..but resting before a marathon can do wonders on my mind. I freak out after one day of not running, not to mention several days of not running or just doing very short runs.
So, I got an email from the marathon committee on Saturday and there are only 127 people running the marathon!!!!!!! I literally got so incredibly nervous, I freaked out and had to run to the bathroom. My stomach went psycho for a while after that. 127 people, are they nuts! Who runs a marathon with only 127 people. I figured there would at least be 2000, if the marathon was small! There are people coming from 4 countries and 31 states. That is not comforting at all. They are probably all pro marathon runners coming from all over to leave me in their dust.
The St. George marathon had 6000 runners in it. The Top of Utah marathon had about 4000 runners in it. That is good....the odds of coming in last were much more slim. And I did fine, I came in somewhere in the front of the middle of those two. Much less scary. I wasn't freaked out by those numbers at all....I even made some friends during those races.
127 people in the Vegas Marathon!!!!! Holy Buckets!!!! (as my friend Jen would say) Words cannot describe how incredibly nerve wracking that is. Oh man, there goes my stomach again. I have been walking around all sorts of freaked out for a few days now. My mind has been going nuts and I am becoming some kind of crazy person.
I am going to go do an easy run today and try to calm down and get excited again. Oh man!!!!! Maybe I can find my lucky pants...yes, I am still searching and hoping.
Thank heavens for a husband who patiently listens to my freak out sessions and is CONSTANTLY reminding me of how hard I have trained, how prepared I truly am, how great he thinks I will do, how I haven't gained 10 pounds and lost all of my endurance and muscle build after not running for one day, and how everything will be great and fun, how they are not all pro runners coming to wipe me out, how my time will be just fine,yadda yadda yadda. Thank you so much Ben.
So the goal for now.....back to being excited and confident. When it really comes down to it, I really am excited, I am more than prepared, and I can't wait. After all...If ye are prepared, ye shall not fear, right?
Breathe in, Breathe out, Breathe in......


Darci and Ryan said...

You'll do great Becky!! Good luck!

J&E said...

Becky you are THE WOMAN! Compete against yourself not everyone else. That's how I was able to calm myself before big swim meets. If you are competing against yourself you know your opponent pretty well. You are going to do great! Again, we wish we could be there to meet you at the finish line. Make sure Ben gives you a big hug for us!

The Thuesons said...

Okay, first off, I am almost dead after running 3 miles, if you are running over 18 you could come in last place and still have achieved a HUGE accomplishment. How many people can say they have run a marathon? You inspire me to keep at this whole running thing. Thank you. I know you will do great!

Anonymous said...

Becky-Beck!!! You're incredible and I love you to bits!!! You'll do amazing!

Love you!

Colleen said...

It is going to be great, Becky! You are so ready! You will get there, the starting gun will fire and it will be all good. Stop thinking about the start of the race, but think about the middle, where you are just doing your thing, instead!

Gina said...

You are going to do awesome! You've worked so hard!! Good luck Becky!