The harder you work the harder it is to surrender. ~ Vince Lombardi
Oh, how these words are ringing through my head right now.
One year of hard running.
Four months of serious marathon training.
One half marathon.
One Full Marathon.
Cross training..serious, hard, cross training.
A big, hard, long, rewarding, and awesome journey that I have planned on continuing through the summer.
And now, I have to let it go, for a season.
The harder you work the harder it is to surrender. And yes, it is H-A-R-D.
I am dying inside right now. Not because I love running, and I have to stop. Oh no, there is so much more than that. The time, the dedication, the hard work, the mental work, the miles, and the journey. I have worked SO HARD to get to where I am right now. I had planned on blasting out the summer with some fun races and half marathons. I have been so excited. But, that is not going to happen, and I am trying to grasp it, and I am not doing well at it so far. Nope, not at all.
I just got back from the Orthopedic Surgeon. Here is my facebook status about it. I don't feel like ellaborating.
"verdict: stress fracture and severe tendonitis across the top of my foot. Dr. wanted to put me in a hard cast with crutches for six weeks, but after a lot of blubbering from me, we met in the middle and I am in a walking boot for at least a month. It isn't the end of the world, but right now, it feels like it. Bad day."
So, here I am. Me and my boot. It feels more like a ball and chain.
If all goes really well, best case scenerio, I will be running again in about 5 weeks. 5 weeks, just enough time to loose what I have worked so hard to gain. ugh.
In reality, and following what normally happens, it could be longer.
Worst case scenerio, the boot doesn't help, and I get the cast. But we won't go there.
As soon as I get over my pity party, and pick my sorry self up off this chair, I will make a game plan with swimming and biking. At least I got the ok for those.
ugh, ugh, ugh.