My Reasons

My Reasons

This Is Where It All Begins

This Is Where It All Begins

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Ugh.

The harder you work the harder it is to surrender. ~ Vince Lombardi

Oh, how these words are ringing through my head right now.

One year of hard running.

Four months of serious marathon training.

One half marathon.

One Full Marathon.

Cross training..serious, hard, cross training.

Muscle building.

A big, hard, long, rewarding, and awesome journey that I have planned on continuing through the summer.

And now, I have to let it go, for a season.


The harder you work the harder it is to surrender. And yes, it is H-A-R-D.

I am dying inside right now. Not because I love running, and I have to stop. Oh no, there is so much more than that. The time, the dedication, the hard work, the mental work, the miles, and the journey. I have worked SO HARD to get to where I am right now. I had planned on blasting out the summer with some fun races and half marathons. I have been so excited. But, that is not going to happen, and I am trying to grasp it, and I am not doing well at it so far. Nope, not at all.

I just got back from the Orthopedic Surgeon. Here is my facebook status about it. I don't feel like ellaborating.

"verdict: stress fracture and severe tendonitis across the top of my foot. Dr. wanted to put me in a hard cast with crutches for six weeks, but after a lot of blubbering from me, we met in the middle and I am in a walking boot for at least a month. It isn't the end of the world, but right now, it feels like it. Bad day."

So, here I am. Me and my boot. It feels more like a ball and chain.

If all goes really well, best case scenerio, I will be running again in about 5 weeks. 5 weeks, just enough time to loose what I have worked so hard to gain. ugh.

In reality, and following what normally happens, it could be longer.

Worst case scenerio, the boot doesn't help, and I get the cast. But we won't go there.

As soon as I get over my pity party, and pick my sorry self up off this chair, I will make a game plan with swimming and biking. At least I got the ok for those.

ugh, ugh, ugh.

7 comments:

Jessica said...

OH suck!!!!

I'm sorry! I bet you feel really discouraged because of all of the time, sweat, and blood you put into your hard workouts. Training is not easy!

Sending foot-healing thoughts your way.

shaina said...

I can't even imagine how depressed you feel about this right now. So sorry. But, you are still an inspiration to me!

Deanna said...

Oh, geebers...that stinks!!! Big time!!! i'm so sorry. glad you can swim and bike, though!

Katie Ladwig said...

I'm so sorry Becky!!! Remember, it will only be worse if you don't follow doctors orders it could be worse. Hey, maybe this will give you a chance to realize something else you are supposed to be doing with your life. (hint, hint)

Becca said...

Ohhh Becky!!! I'm so sorry. This is terrible news. I'm feeling for you right now. You deserve a pity party. Have one as long as you want! I hate things like this that you have no control over. Wishing you a quicker than normal recovery!! :)

erin d. said...

Boo to that! I hope you have a speedy recovery. I believe in miracles and will hope you are fully recovered in... 3 weeks! Here's hoping beautiful! Hang in there.

Darci and Ryan said...

That stinks!! Hope everything works out the best case scenario way. ;-)