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This Is Where It All Begins

Monday, January 18, 2010

things that make you go hhhhmmmmm

My visit with the general surgeon today...hhhhmmmmm

Bringing my two yr. old with me to the appointment.... double hhhhmmmmm

The surgeon (after asking a million questions and poking an prodding until he literally brought tears to my eyes) is 99.9% sure I have gallbladder disease...hhhmmmm

Gallbladder disease is excruciating and can be more painful than stones..hhhhmmm

Gallbladder disease can only be officially diagnosed through a test that CANNOT be done on a pregnant women without harming the baby....hhhmmmm

Galldlbadder disease is where the gallbladder cannot get the bile out fast enough and sometimes can't get it out at all. Therefore it contracts into itself for hours on end, and I feel all of it the whole time. There is no cure aside from gallbladder removal...hhhmmmm

The surgeon would gladly remove the gallbladder next week if I was not pregnant, or if he could prove it was life threatening or that my gallbladder was not functioning (which would be done by doing the test he can't do) ...hhhmmmm

I get to wait until I have the baby (probably just a few days after having the baby) before the test and surgery can be done...hhhmmm

Nothing aside from morphine can help the pain, and it will only get worse as time goes on....hhhmmmm

I get to spend the next 1/2 of my pregnancy experiencing excruciating pain at least once a day with no meds. to help me, or I can go into a form of pain that leaves me not able to function for at least 2 days, brings on a severe fever, a trip to the ER and an emergency gallbladder removal. Whichever comes first....
Tripple hhhhhmmmmm

I am quickly making a list of all of my blessings, things to occupy me on short notice, upcoming events that I am looking forward to, and things for the kids to do when I am sick and Ben is at work. I just had a nice long cry of complete discouragement and of course pain, but now I will move forward and do what I can with what I have.

The Lord will take care of me. He always does.


Adri said...

So sorry, Becky. I know everything will work out, but in the meantime, please call anytime you need me to come take the kids away for a bit.

shaina said...

I hope a solution presents itself, that either doesn't have to wait six months, or resolves itself for the interim. Hang in there!

Maja said...

I have a friend who had her gallbladder out a couple of days after she had her first baby. Luckily for her she only suffered with it for about a month or so before she was due. Bummer deal for you. If anyone can do it though you can. You are amazing.

Colleen said...

Oh that sounds awful, Becky! I am hoping for the best case scenario on this one, although even that sounds terribly painful. Let me know anytime if the kids need to come over! Last minute is A-OK!

Sue said...

Same thing happened to a friend of mine. Sorry! It's sad that the relatively "easy" solution can't happen till after you have the baby. Another terrible after more greasy french fries for you :( Maybe that isn't so bad after all.

Darci and Ryan said...

Hmmmmm, is exactly right! Hang in there!

Peter Nguyen said...

Holy smokes Becky.

You need to kick that gallbladder's behind!

Trinette McCrary said...

You will be in my prayers. I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this. Let me know if you need anything.

Jenny Cook said...

You are such a trooper! I am so sorry that you're hurting, but I am so proud of you! You always have a positive attitude and you are such a good example to me. I love ya! I hope things get better soon.

runningfan said...

Hang in there, friend! You can do this!

The Seven Family said...

Totally understand - it isn't fun, but you can do it!! Hang in there. The surgery isn't that bad - I was back home and nursing again within 24 hours!