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This Is Where It All Begins

This Is Where It All Begins

Thursday, February 4, 2010

First and Last

This will be the first and the last pregnancy picture I will willingly have taken of me.
That's right. I have NEVER in my life taken a picture of myself pregnant, on purpose.
And this is why.

22 weeks

Can you tell I work out three times a week for 45 min.? Didn't think so.
Blah! And it only gets better from here.

Anyway, enough about the picture. Moving on....

About the pregnancy thus far:

I am feeling great and have lots of energy. It feels good to feel alive. I am loving the second trimester, which is quickly coming to an end already! The last of my monthly appointments will be next month. Crazy!

My new perspective on pregnancy has made this a more meaningful and fun pregnancy. I am not a fan of being pregnant, but this time around, I have found a lot of joy and appreciation in the journey. I feel blessed.

Gallbladder is still just as bad as ever, but I am managing quite well now with pain pills. (until the baby comes..then bye bye gallbladder)

I have the nesting instinct worse than ever! It has been really fun though, because this will be the first baby we will be bringing home to our actual home, so I can really truly nest. Ben and his parents moved us while I was in the hospital after having Mary. We brought her home to a living room full of boxes. We didn't even have the bed set up. I cried.
We were living with my parents when I had Sam. We moved to California 7 weeks later.
It is great to get our own home all ready to go. I have been in decor heaven. (as much as the budget will allow)The kids rooms are beginning to come together and look awesome. And the house is VERY organized. It feels good and it is fun. It gives me something to think about and look forward to as well.

It has taken me 5 years and 3 1/2 pregnancies, but I FINALLY got over the fact that I physically am not able to nurse (confirmed by a lactation consultant and some doctors). I got over the unnecessary guilt brought on by some ronchy WIC nurses and some insensitive mothers. I got my confirmation from the Lord that the baby will be just fine, and actually better off with formula. We will ALL be better off with formula. I almost can't imagine what it will be like not to dread feeding my baby. It will be great!
I feel a huge sense of relief. Not to "girls" will really appreciate me not putting them through the boot camp of months of pumping, mastitis, clogged ducts, lots of blood clots, tears, and not much to show for it. If momma and her girls ain't happy...ain't no one happy. I am welcoming the cans of formula with open arms.

About baby boy:

I had another ultrasound today. The Dr. wanted a better look at his heart and his face. It was a long ultrasound, and the nurse did a lot of it in 4D! Holy Crap this boy is cute! We don't have a scanner, and the pictures look blurry on the blog, but I have to get them on here, blurry or not. I can't stop looking at them. I am in love with this boy. And the best part...he has fat cheeks just like the other two! He totally looks like them. I can't wait to get him here in person.

His adorable fat cheek face, with his hand in his mouth. It really isn't blurry, but I guess it looks that way on here.

His cute little foot.

His face again...with fingers in mouth.

More good news: the ultrasound tec. measured him, and he is right on track for the June 4th due date. My Birthday! I am not getting my hopes to high, but how cool (and ironic) would that be.

He is incredibly active. He reminds me so much of how Mary was in the womb. My belly is constantly bouncing. The Dr. always has a hard time getting the heart beat because he won't stay still long enough.

The name game is still going. Boy names are so hard for us. We do have one that has stuck for a while now, so hopefully it will stay. I LOVE the name, and Ben likes it more every day. Stay tuned for that announcement....

That's it for now. I think I will go look at the pictures again...or go paint something.


Colleen said...

So glad everything looks good and baby boy is healthy and perfect and adorable already! And you look great too, Becky. Seriously, I'm not just saying that. You look great!!!

The Hardy Things in Life said...

LOVE the pregnancy shot, you are so little!! But lookin good! I am sure Ben thinks you are smokin HOT!! WHAT FUN!! Glad things are going well!!

shaina said...

I was at least twice your size (belly) when I was 22 weeks pregnant. YOu have nothing to say!!

So glad you can enjoy the pregnancy now. Love seeing those photos! So exciting. Nest away, my friend!

Nancy said...

Enjoy feeling so good. I'm so ready for my baby to come I can't stand it. Yeah, I'm not a fan of pregnancy pictures of myself either, but I have to document things or I go crazy. So I take a belly picture every month. They're always cute at first (just like yours, by the way, super cute)... until I start to swell up and look terrible. Oh well, it gives you perspective when you get back to your normal clothes. Don't listen to anyone who gets on your case about breastfeeding. It's your decision. Glad you're making the decision based on your health and happiness. Whatever keeps YOU sane, Mommy. Love you tons! Wish I could see your house and decorating. I love that kind of stuff too... but I don't do too much of it. Hahaha.

Deanna said...

Such wonderful news! you are so stinking cute. :) I don't dare take a picture of me...I'm only 18 weeks, and feel gigantic, not to mention, I look gigantic. LOL!

Go paint yourself a bedroom, you nesting, hottie, preggo mama! :)

Stefanie said...

You are RIDICULOUS!! It's about time you started show.

Darci and Ryan said...

Wahoo! Glad things are going well and that you are feeling good too! You look amazing, you silly girl!

erin d. said...

First off what are you talking about?! You look great! You totally look like you could kick my skinny butt in that picture. Don't dis yourself, i'd love to see more cute progression shots of you, so will your kiddos some day. Second way to go for you on the breast feeding thing. Obviously breast is best, but com'on people, a sane momma is best duh! Good for you in making and feeling good about that decision, you are a great mommy for it. And thirdly we are so happy for you guys and wish we lived closer so we could meet & greet #3. Love you guys!

mamma mia said...

I'm so excited for you. And, yes, you can tell that you work out.
I had to quit nursing my 1st when she was nine months and they made me feel awful. I was pregnant and my uterus was contracting, I would have gone into premature labor if I kept going and they made me feel like I had just handed over my responsibility for her. It's not like we want this, we love nurturing our babies all by ourselves, but sometimes it just isn't in the cards. It is what is best for you, and I know all about the pumping, miserable. You are amazing and your baby will be loved no matter what. Congrats.

Robyn Whitworth said...

Yay for your pregancy!!!! I will tell you that amidst the wonderfulness and miracles that transpire with children, 3 is nuts! It is like you finally have that busy nutsy family you have been thinking about. I really love it. Lots to do, but love it! We are looking forward (FAR forward) to a few more kiddos for us, but I just wanted to let you know that I also have not been a breastfeeding fan, and my kids survive just fine on formula and Sam's club has it super cheap, and I LOVE not dreading the wieght-gain issues, the pain, the nastiness of it all. I know some people can do it, but not me!!! It has been so great to not have to worry about it with Jaxon. Anyways, love you guys, and hope for the best in thenext few months!!!! YAY!!!!