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This Is Where It All Begins

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

It didn't end there.....

I guess if we thought the hurt knee was going to be the worst of it, we were sooo wrong.
Ben's knee is still really painful and swollen and now turning all sorts of colors, so no Dr. visit yet. We have to wait for the swelling to go down. We are now more sure he tore/ruptured the meniscus. Yesterday morning, after I spent the night getting up 3 times with Sam and several times with the dog (yeah, I know..the dog), Ben woke me up saying he couldn't open his eyes and he needed me to text his manager and tell her he wouldn't be to work.
Come to find out, he slept with his contacts in, which usually isn't a big deal. For some odd reason, they totally burnt, or irritated, or did something major to his eyes. The pain was so severe that he couldn't even open them. We spend the day yesterday with the lights off, blinds closed and Ben kept his sunglasses on.
So now, he can't walk and can't see. Did I mention that 6 of his toes are black from the frostbite he got a while back (the reason for the new ski boots). Add that to the list. He is in pain all over. Poor guy. His eyes are slowly getting better today, but they still aren't totally healed. He is not sure if he will be able to drive to work, because of the brightness of the sun and the snow. Too painful. Ben is so healthy and normally avoids a lot of stuff like this. It is just so crazy that it all hit at once.
The past 5 days have been pretty trying for our family. It has just been kind of weird around here. No good way to explain it. Just difficult. I am struggling and yearning for some sort of a break, and Ben is in so much pain and aggravation, that he can't really be here mentally or physically (can't say I blame him at all).
Sam has been a nightmare. He has been waking up at night and bawling all day unless I am holding him. For those of you who have been through it, you know how trying that can after day after day. Sam also woke up at 3:00am last night COVERED in blood. He has been having bloody noses a lot lately, but this one was nasty. His ENTIRE face was covered in dried blood. I mean literally covered. I couldn't see his skin. His ears, hair and neck were also soaked. His hands had it all over them too. So, Sam got a nice little sponge bath at 3:00 this morning. Fun times!
Things could be WAY worse, and we know that. I has just been a really weird, kind of rough for us this week. I think we could use a vacation, or at least some miracle to heal Ben and some sort of break for me to pull myself together.
For now, we will just keep living and going through the motions until life feels like life again. It will pass, it always does. The end.


runningfan said...

Oh, wow...crazy times! So sorry that Ben is miserable! When Daddy can't give Mommy a break, life is bad! Let me know if you'd like me to take your kids home with me from playgroup tomorrow. I have a houseguest right now so my evening is tied up, but I'd love to help!

Berly said...

I am so sorry about the knee, eyes, etc. Warren told me and I felt so bad for Ben. What a mess. The bloody noses stink. Humidifiers seem to help in the kids rooms. We have one in each room during the winter, especially in January and February. Hope everyone starts to get better.

Colleen said...

I am so sorry you guys have had so much to deal with right now! We will keep Ben's quick healing in our prayers. If you want, Mary can come over after playgroup tomorrow for a playdate with Josh for the afternoon. He'd LOVE it! If you want to try to have Sam come too, that'd be great, but it sounds like he isn't all that into being away from Mommy right now! Poor kiddo! This dry weather gives our Ben bloody noses too, it isn't ever pretty!

Colleen said...

Oh! I just saw that Heidi offered too, and then realized she has preschool afterwards anyway. Well, anytime that works for you would be great. I know Josh would like having her come. She could come over after school and stay until dinner! And I think what Berly said may be a great idea for Sam, the humidifier in his room at night. Give that a try!

Deanna said...

HOly COW!!! His eyes probably hurt because the contacts blocked oxygen getting to his pupils...therefore, the blood vessles in his eye are growing into his pupils to get more oxygen, hence the burning and light sensitivity. I only know this becasue I used to overwear my contacts, and the blood vessels have almost taken over my pupils, hence the bad eyesight, and my fear of ever wearing contacts again. If he lays off the contacts for a few days to a week, then breaks out a new pair every 30 days, then he should be fine and the blood drain from the vessels. Man. Good luck! It must be like having a brand new baby all over again!!! :) Ryan thinks you guys have an awesomely cool and happenin' life. Keep up the great posts!

Jessica Kay said...

Oh I wish I were there to help you!! I would do your dishes, make you dinner, and take your kids off your hands for a few hours. I wish I had a magic fairy to do those things for me last week so I wish I could do it for you. Hand in there! And tell Ben he better get his body back together and be healed.

The Hardy Things in Life said...

Oh my heck! I sure hope that everyone gets to feeling better soon! You are all in our prayers! We love you lots!

shaina said...

Oh gosh. You really need some uplifting!! Hope everything settles back to normal soon. I am so sorry!!